I guess I may give this another shot. Four months after I wrote such a depressing opening blog thing, whatever the hell you would call it, I’m better, I suppose. I moved back to Arizona exactly one month after that post, and it’s actually hard for me to believe that I was in such a mess. All I really remember is having a constant aching in my head. Almost feeling like things were going to erupt at any moment, and they did a few times. I wasn’t me, and I’m sure I’m still not. I find it terrible that I spent so much of my time not knowing where I was, theoretically, that I can’t even recall much that has happened to me the past 2 years. I feel like I need somebody to talk to about what goes on in my head, but whenever I find someone willing to give two shits, I can’t sort through my thoughts well enough to take advantage of their kindness. I realize that makes me sound like I need a therapist, but I just need a friend. Summer has gotten kind of lonely.
I don’t see who would ever want to read all of this, about my life or anything that I post at all, but so many people have told me to make a tumblr and if anything, it will help my thoughts. hopefully.
I’m going to try to make this as little cliche as possible, but I’m going to make a list of things I miss. Just for shits&gigs.
Hanna White, Taylor Collier, Sierra Corbett, and Bianca Buliga
Warm, loving rain
Knowing someone as well as myself
Oregon as well as Glendale
Easy living- to sum up a lot
Sierra Verde Park
Being so happy I couldn’t not smile
The best of my first love
My windowsill seat
My family as a whole
Time to think
That feeling when the air is the same temperature as your body
Being nice to everybody
Having a sense of hope, faith, dreams, and mystery.
Obviously, this is way too cliche to even read without barfing so my apologizes.